I'm baaaaaack!

So it's been WELL over a year since I updated. Life is hectic. Kids and work and lifer will do that to you. But I feel like I need to get back into blogging.

For weeks I've been researching and googling and calling insurance and speech therapists trying to figure out what to do for Caleb.  For those that don't know, earlier this year Caleb was diagnosed with Childhood Apraxia of Speech. It has to do with motor function. I would go into detail but I feel like I've explained it to everyone under the sun and they just look at me funny. So if you want to know what it is, google. Calendar understands EVERYTHNG hat is said to him, but his brain doesn't know how to talk back, basically. He has some fine and gross motto delays as well, which is common ith apraxia.

Anyway, I was just on pinterest looking up some speech therapy ideas and suggestions and I got the feeling that I need to start documenting Caleb's struggles and progress. He is such a SMART kid it KILLS me that he can't say what he wants/feels/needs. Just as it breaks my heart,it frustrates the hell out of me. I feel like a HORRIBLE mother when I yell at him that I can't understand him and hat I don't know what he wants. He whines and cries and throws tantrums because he can't communicate what he needs. It is so hard to deal with.

We've been teaching him sign language (a big THANK YOU to those that suggested Baby Signing Time) and it has helped quite a bit but with his motor issues it makes it hard to interpret some of his signs. But progress is progress and I'll take it.

I am still looking for a speech therapist for him. We LOVED Sarah from Babies Can't Wait but she isn't doing private therapy. Why do the good ones always leave?? I hate it. I need divine intervention here! We just haven't clicked with some of them.

So Caleb just turned three on September 17th. He was such a goofball at his party. How I love that kid! Any "normal" three-year-old would be speaking in sentences and driving you crazy, but Caleb has very few words. So far he has (and they come and go, which is another joy of apraxia):
Mommy (he can finally say "m"!)
Daddy
Addy
All done -ah-dah
No (nah)
Apple -ah-poh
Bubble -Buh-booh
Ally (the current love of his life) -a-yee
Buh-bye
Emily (from Thomas the Train) eh-mee
Nani (my mom)
Eat

....I think that's all he has right now. I'm drawing blanks on anything else. 

I wish I could cure this for him. I hate to him hm struggle and I know the kids at school will be horrible. It just doesnt seem fair. How would you function if you understood everything the as going on but had no way to communicate back?